I was thinking back to when i wanted to write a letter to Leo, letting him know what hopes I have for him and in which, here is a small list. A draft.
1. I want him to look at the world and see beauty, from nature to sprawling cities. Nature is beautiful, it's innocent and somewhat magical. Cities and their forest of skyscrapers and cars speeding by like it's the city's blood in it's veins.
2. Never pick on anyone for race, outward appearances, sexual orientation or religion. I've been discriminated for my race, my appearance, and even back in highschool for having a liking for girls. I honestly dont see why people have to be cruel to others for something that is different from their views, as long as they are not hurting anyone or anything.
3. It will be ok if he doesn't believe in God, or chooses a different religion from us. I am just afraid of negative feedback from my family to let them know i have lost faith in the catholic church, i never had a full heart with it and never enjoyed what they taught. To me, God is loving, he doesnt hate, he makes no mistakes, and is okay if you question him and his existence. And if he were to EVER come to a decision, or choice, I want him to know I support his decision, and that I won't make him feel like a bad person for feeling that way.
4. I want him to not view women as sexual objects. They have feelings too (ahem MEN) As i have learned, sex to men isnt emotional like it is for us, it's physical, and I want my son to understand that once he's in a committed relationship to not view Porn, or anything that involves other women other than his significant other. Women are so sexualized today, it's very sickening, and to me if he were to view porn while with someone he loves, it is VERY emotionally scarring for pretty much the woman. Plus to have other women sexualized in media, doesn't help later on with the relationship.
5. To feel comfortable to come speak to me or his dad about anything. When I was a kid, I saw/see spirits, hear things and sense emotions in a room. If anyone believes me or not reading this i dont care. But being told I was on drugs cause i saw something, or told to read the bible to get these feelings and visions away hurt. I know i'm not insane, but it did hurt.
I know I have more to write to him about, but this is just a list, a draft to when i do decide to put all of this on paper and when he's old enough to understand things, let him read it. I just want what's best for him.
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